It’s midnight

I open my notes and just write

I’ve missed moments like these

When nobody wants anything from me

When I’m free

– Free to think

Free to feel

Free to just be

Of course,

Gone were the days

When I’d find myself pushing through

– In spite of every ache

Trust me,

Those were the hardest, darkest days

But nowadays,

I’m just tired

Now,

I sit here and try to be untired

I sit here and discern

– and wonder

How are you?

I’m sorry to have left you

– Hanging just like that

I’m sorry to have left you

But, what will you have me say

What will you have me do

When the very parallel 

– of why the past became the past

Is replaying here, right now

I’m across from you

And just watch

I can only just watch now

I’m sorry to have left you

– Hanging just like that

I guess I have a clue

– Why it’s all coming apart the way they are

But what would you have me say

What would you have me do

I do not mean to hurt you

But, these scenes are all just too familiar now

– and not in a good way

Tell me how to end this properly

I say you can finally let me go

Can you let me go?