everybody raves about how great being in love is. they mystify moments, memories, instances when time would stop and heartbeats skip. love is really a splendid thing.

but not all the time.

sometimes, love is also hard. love demands dying to self for. it requires choosing the other person than choosing yourself. and when one is lucky, that love can also be returned back.

but what about the unlucky ones? will love ever work out for them?

my Bible says all things are possible with God. that i can actually win despite losing countless of times.

it may not be you. i’m not saying that i’m closing the door on any possibility of an us. but i’ve learned to give way to His leading beyond my desires. please dont accuse me of fakery. because i’m trying my best to cope with this situation. i do want you. but i dont know if that context still matters. binalik na kita kay Lord twice. i think i can do it a third time. hindi ako naniniwala sa luck pero sana third time’s a charm. kasi oo, masakit na hindi ka sa akin. it hurts that i can’t love you freely and how i want to.

when can love be a splendid thing? only time can tell.