We pretend to not want what we want
In order to protect ourselves
— just in case we won’t have it

Only to sabotage what was really for us
— To end up having to have foreshadowed what shouldn’t have been

Any form of reservation
Was actually realized self-preservation
And she had to go through this realization
To finally be free

Now seeing if sitting with Jesus
— would finally end the vicious cycle
Of wanting love
But not being ready for it
— or at least she thought

To end this vicious cycle
To not, anymore, grieve what was
And look towards what could be