let my most genuine apology take place

Nakatingin sa paligid, nagmamasid

Nakikinig, nagagambala

Ganoon na nga ba kadaling mawala ng parang bula?

Ganoon na lamang ba kaming kadaling iwan?

Na para bang wala tayong pinagsamahan?

Hindi na ba masaya?

Humupa na ba ang mga pagtawa?

Sadyang ganoon nga lang ba kadali?

Who am I to demand anything other than?

When I also practiced the same

I also left at fault

Leaving people who left God

Because it was Him who I cannot leave

But I am also to be blamed

– for the not saying “goodbye”

I wanted you to standby

To wait until I had it all figured out

To wait until I was okay

But, I guess you couldn’t love me that much

You couldn’t love me that way

Asking God “what’s the plan?”

He’s my best friend after all

No one can take His place 

Let my love for you resonate

Even if you had a different take

And let my most genuine apology take place

For I have not loved you perfectly

I failed at that

Let my most genuine apology take place

For I cannot give Him up for you

I love you, friend

And I will always be here to welcome you back

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