She’s beautiful
She’s smart

She’s captivating
She loves her God
She loves the church
She loves her family
She loves everyone

But nobody really sees her
Nobody really knows what she feels
And how complicated her feelings can get
How the attention can be too much

And how she just wants to be left the hell alone

I want a life wherein I can be beautiful yet peaceful
I want a life where I can be free and myself

Beautiful and loved,
  — but respected
Beautiful and loved,
  — yet perfectly fine and peaceful

Everyone’s looking for me
Everyone wants to have me

I just really want my God
  — for He knows how to truly love me
I just want what He has for me
  — who He has for me

I just want to be left the hell alone

My God, my God, save me

(originally posted year 2024)