Real, tangible truth masked as delusions. What I thought were real are not actually real. And I really do like you. I am carrying His heart for you and who you represent. 

God says to write my heart out. What’s been going on. And even what’s about to take place. I’m not really at the point of putting off dating anymore, nor that desperate to hop on it. I am just focused on His heart for His people and what to do right now. 

I hear you telling me that you have paused the pursuit because I am putting off dating. But I am not. At least not anymore. 

God’s telling me to receive love. To know how to receive also and not just give. To be watered in order to flourish. In the most purest sense.

I know you love me. And I’ve cared for you, too. And I know what we have– this assignment goes way beyond just us. It goes way beyond our own point of views, our own worlds, our own family backgrounds. 

I carry His heart for you. And I know what this union symbolizes. His heart for His people– the nation He loves so much. The nation He wants to carry.

Let me speak for myself. Let me tell you how I feel. And what He wants.

To arrive at our promised land. And to bring back what was lost. For the nation He so desperately loves.